I had been fighting a cold last week that just got the better of me when I got to Sweden. I spent most of the weekend in bed, sleeping. I have been feeling like shit and had there been enough money on my phone to SMS my colleagues informing them of my decision to stay I and sleep all day I would have done just that. I can't seem to understand that I am at work because there is no money on my phone. Is there no money on my phone because I have no money and hence have to go to work?

It's easier to get up, bath and go to work than it is to lay there fighting with your guilt, should I, shouldn't I - anyway I need the money and it's not like I'm being driven into the ground.

The blogging is slowing down because the dam wall is being built up and at some point it's going to give way and cave in either ending the blog or sending into a new dimension.

I have been following the progress of the Cassini probe very closely. The Cassini was sent out on a 7 year journey to Saturn, for those who don't know. It was sent towards Venus first to use Venus' gravitational pull to slingshot the probe back towards Earth and then use Earth's gravity to slingshot the probe some 1.2 billion miles into outer space. The Cassini reached Saturn and beamed back pictures noone expected to see. They managed to control the probe with such accuracy that they steered it through the rings of Saturn, which move at speeds faster than a speeding bullet. A particle the size of a grain of rice would tear the probe to pieces. The probe has a camera onboard which is set to take pictures of Saturn's largest moon Titan.

Titan and other moons are thought to hold secrets to the source of life. Titan's atmosphere is green with orange clouds. It is made of ice and probably has volcano's that erupt hot water or methane gas. IT is said to have rivers that run ethane and methane and rain drops of the liquid gas, because of the gravity on Titan, are the size of oranges and fall in slow motion.

I find this information too much to absorb and does not help my angst. Too much, too far, it's very difficult to intellectualize but is comforting, very comforting. I hope that when we die we get to fly among the planets and learn the secrets of the universe.

I don't know why the science lesson, but there's a lot of really interesting shit going on out there.

This weekend Dave Tait gets married, by Kizzi, in someone's garden. Best of luck to Dave, Paulina, Tatiana and Big. I am gutted that I can't be there.